i'll smoke a cigarette while i contemplate your face memorize your eyes- that blue with no name just water-wind-sparkle the way those butterfly lashes frame them kiss your skin every time you blink i'll remember the curve of your cheek and the peak of your lips and the taste of your kiss i will let my mind wander just a little while longer i'll remember how soft you always were how electric your smile could be i'll dream of the us that should have been firefly glitter queens more radiant than the moon as we flew time and space meant nothing well, one cigarette turned into three and i wonder if you ever remember me
welcome to the asylum medicated monstrosity pain in chains we wander the halls numbed remembering the way we used to be we are the damned with glass eyes and steel hearts we do not see the peeling walls the barred windows the locked doors we have forgotten them the walls & the bars & the doors they do not hold us here we are prisoners to our weakness we are condemned by our own disease shuffle in socks with treads on the bottom among the rubble that was our lives here i can remember you and it can't kill me
Just got home from Detroit- all in one piece!- and I am eagerly awaiting pictures!
This weekend was a blast and a half! Drove up Friday with Mr Black, and as per usual, they had fucked up our reservation. (Welcome to the Leland!) But instead of getting a shit-tastic little room, they ended up giving us a jacuzzi suite! (w00t!) I just have to say, that hot tub was so '70's porno it's awesome! Hung out, went to the meet & greet and chilled with some cool people, smoked way too fuckin much, and got a lovely surprise- Lenna Amore had brought my brathair up as her "assistant"! So while Mr Black shot with Natasha Fatale, I got to hang out with him, Dade McHaul, Dollface Deadsy, and EPO for a bit. (Good times!) And around 2:30 in the AM, Jose G and Tabitha Vice (our roommates) got in, so we chilled for a bit and called it a night around 4.
Saturday- Georgian make-up on Dade and GoddessAngie for a shoot with Lisolette Gilcrest. I was really happy with the way it turned out, and I can't wait to see some pictures! Then the lovely Alizarine brought me a gorgeous corset she'd made to shoot me in! The only problem- the stockings I'd bought were mispackaged- white, not black. But the super-sexy Barbara came to the rescue and lent me hers, so the shoot went off perfectly. (Again, can't wait to see pictures!!!) Did some pretty make-up on an emo-boy, snagged some lunch with Lisolette, A Owen Layne, and a couple others at everyone's favorite diner, then did a shoot with the sextastic Tabitha Vice! (Much fun was had.) Assisted Mr Black on a shoot with Rachel Rampage, and then, thanks to Lisolette, I got to go to Dirty Show! The work was awesome, and it was sweet to see myself on the wall lol! Mr Black, Dade, Angie and I grabbed a bite at the diner, and then went back to our room to hang out with Jose, Tabitha, Kira Nova, Miss Allison and Collin. (Kira and I availed ourselves of the hot tub hehe!)
Sunday, Mr Black shot a Dom/sub set with Justin PC and I, then I did a topless-and-jeans shoot with Image Rooster, lunch with Lenna Amore and my brother, Mr Black shot naughty fun with Miss Allison and myself, romantic topless goodness in my favorite white dress with Freckles, and a zivity-set hopeful with Tim Nolan involving an Air Force uniform shirt, fishnets, and a helmet!
It was a long weekend and a long drive back, but it was sooo much fun! Can't wait to see the pictures, and till the CAC on Halloween!
Forget What We Were Just Think Of What We Could Be...
romance me feel me breathe me i am the rose and you're the lightning touch me like it kills you like tonight might be the last one hold me hold me remember me tomorrow inhale take me in taste me sweeter than the last one know that i'll be the one you think of every night forever take me like a killer like you can't live unless you're inside me like it's the one last thing you'll do rape me like a hero eat me whole consume me pick your poison & drink deep need me stare me down memorize me the electric shine in my eyes the curve of my mountain and the cut of my lips i am the goddess and you're the pilgrim on your knees pray wish believe in only me live me crave me i am your cocaine i am your ecstasy save me be my white knight be my jesus be me love me deeper
look how beautiful you are with your bones protruding with your flesh pale pulled tight like a canvas like white silk on a screen with a fragile frame look how perfect you are so delicate a tiny glass vial full of pretty poison look how flawless you are look how beautiful
... reidh go dti sibh... sibh mba mo duine geal ridire, mo dochas cathain gach uile rud thainig fabht air, mo neart cathain mise riachtanais go dti lig gabh... sibh mba mo gaiscoich cathain si an uile taispeain gan tairbhe...
cen rud did mise coisir go dti scrios e seo?
anois, cathain mise riachtanas a cara nios mo na i gconai, mise faigh me fein in eineacht le ceann ar bith...
go dti ceas croi ag tigh sibhse iomlan, ansin.
mise eirigh as...
sibhse dean si iontach follasach iad sin ta dada orm... reidh go dti sibhse...
Sinne mair sna iad seo cineal plaisteach domhan In eineacht le cineal plaisteach daoine Siadsan mair sna mor plaisteach teachs In eineacht le cineal plaisteach clanns Siadsan is cineal Siadsan is foirfe Siadsan is breige Sinne mair sna iad seo cineal plaisteach domhan In eineacht le cineal plaisteach daoine Siadsan machnaigh sinne is granna Toisc sinne is nithiuil Sinne is nach cineal Sinne is nach plaisteach Sinne is nach foirfe Sinne is aonair Feoil Fuil Cnamh Sinne caith colms Amhail sceals Amhail a suaitheantas Sinne is nach cineal Ar bith Sinne is nach plaisteach Sinne is nach foirfe Sinne is nithiuil daoine Ag tigh nithiuil pian Nithiuil colms Agus ce go plaisteach daoine creid sinne is granna Sinne coinnigh rite go dti ar baruil- Se is an pian, an gleic Ce acu is alainn