Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Shades Of Seduction- by Conceptually Black

waiting for love, by freckles

.memorized.

i'll smoke a cigarette
while i contemplate your face
memorize your eyes-
that blue with no name
just water-wind-sparkle
the way those butterfly lashes
frame them
kiss your skin
every time you
blink
i'll remember
the curve of your cheek
and the peak of your lips
and the taste of your kiss
i will let my mind wander
just a little while longer
i'll remember how
soft
you always were
how electric
your smile could be
i'll dream of the
us
that should have been
firefly glitter queens
more radiant
than the moon
as we flew
time and space
meant nothing
well, one cigarette turned into three
and i wonder
if you ever remember me

Monday, September 28, 2009

H E R O E S

close your eyes
let me taste your fear
let me breathe your world in

84 miles and we're still driving

it's only cold
without you in me
whisper the stars, love

75- can't we go faster?

the highway
left it all behind us
racing our heart-rates

it's over now.

explode with me
our own super nova
we'll be heroes tonight-

as we shine.

A S Y L U M

welcome to the asylum
medicated monstrosity
pain in chains
we wander the halls
numbed
remembering
the way we used to be
we are the damned
with glass eyes
and steel hearts
we do not see
the peeling walls
the barred windows
the locked doors
we have forgotten them
the walls & the bars & the doors
they do not hold us here
we are prisoners to our weakness
we are condemned by our own disease
shuffle
in socks
with treads on the bottom
among the rubble
that was our lives
here i can
remember you
and it can't
kill me

.KILLER.DOLLS.

I WANT TO FUCK YOUR LIFE UP

look up
&
see me
where you could
only dream
of being

look up
&
feel me
rising
as you
slip

look up
&
know me
when i was your
other half

look up
&
hate me
for living
as you
died

I WANT TO FUCK YOUR LIFE UP

drop another line
another name
&
watch it
shatter

they can't save you now
as you
spin-out
as you
burn

I WANT TO FUCK YOUR LIFE UP

you're just like
all the
plastic people
you always said
you
hated
you're just like
all the
mannequins
and
barbie dolls
and
magazine covers
beautiful
&
hollow

I WANT TO FUCK YOUR LIFE UP

a great big list of people who suck

1) people who tell you they miss you, how bad they want to see you, and then blow you off like you don't exist.

2) people who beg you to work with them, and then flake on you.

3) people who don't understand the meaning of the word "no".

4) manipulative people.

5) people who take out their frustrations on you, when you have nothing to do with it.

6) people who lie.

7) people who try so hard to seem cool and important that they forget who they really are.

8) people who push you to be something you're not.

9) people who only like you because they think they can get something out of you.

10) closed-minded people.

11) people who pretend to be your best friend, and then make it pretty clear they don't give a shit about you.

12) people who are so focused on their boyfriend/girlfriend they forget about the other people in their lives.

13) people who care more about partying than anything else- including their friends.

14) dumb people.

R E D- Karina Nicole by Lazyi, make-up by ME!

DEAC 4

Just got home from Detroit- all in one piece!- and I am eagerly awaiting pictures!

This weekend was a blast and a half! Drove up Friday with Mr Black, and as per usual, they had fucked up our reservation. (Welcome to the Leland!) But instead of getting a shit-tastic little room, they ended up giving us a jacuzzi suite! (w00t!) I just have to say, that hot tub was so '70's porno it's awesome! Hung out, went to the meet & greet and chilled with some cool people, smoked way too fuckin much, and got a lovely surprise- Lenna Amore had brought my brathair up as her "assistant"! So while Mr Black shot with Natasha Fatale, I got to hang out with him, Dade McHaul, Dollface Deadsy, and EPO for a bit. (Good times!) And around 2:30 in the AM, Jose G and Tabitha Vice (our roommates) got in, so we chilled for a bit and called it a night around 4.

Saturday- Georgian make-up on Dade and GoddessAngie for a shoot with Lisolette Gilcrest. I was really happy with the way it turned out, and I can't wait to see some pictures! Then the lovely Alizarine brought me a gorgeous corset she'd made to shoot me in! The only problem- the stockings I'd bought were mispackaged- white, not black. But the super-sexy Barbara came to the rescue and lent me hers, so the shoot went off perfectly. (Again, can't wait to see pictures!!!) Did some pretty make-up on an emo-boy, snagged some lunch with Lisolette, A Owen Layne, and a couple others at everyone's favorite diner, then did a shoot with the sextastic Tabitha Vice! (Much fun was had.) Assisted Mr Black on a shoot with Rachel Rampage, and then, thanks to Lisolette, I got to go to Dirty Show! The work was awesome, and it was sweet to see myself on the wall lol! Mr Black, Dade, Angie and I grabbed a bite at the diner, and then went back to our room to hang out with Jose, Tabitha, Kira Nova, Miss Allison and Collin. (Kira and I availed ourselves of the hot tub hehe!)

Sunday, Mr Black shot a Dom/sub set with Justin PC and I, then I did a topless-and-jeans shoot with Image Rooster, lunch with Lenna Amore and my brother, Mr Black shot naughty fun with Miss Allison and myself, romantic topless goodness in my favorite white dress with Freckles, and a zivity-set hopeful with Tim Nolan involving an Air Force uniform shirt, fishnets, and a helmet!

It was a long weekend and a long drive back, but it was sooo much fun! Can't wait to see the pictures, and till the CAC on Halloween!

Thursday, September 24, 2009

.love.me.deeper.

Forget What We Were
Just Think Of What We Could Be...



romance me
feel me
breathe me
i am the rose
and you're the lightning
touch me
like it kills you
like tonight
might be the last one
hold me
hold me
remember me
tomorrow
inhale
take me in
taste me
sweeter than the last one
know that i'll be
the one
you think of
every night
forever
take me
like a killer
like you
can't live
unless
you're
inside me
like it's the
one
last
thing
you'll do
rape me
like a hero
eat me
whole
consume me
pick your poison
&
drink
deep
need me
stare me down
memorize me
the electric shine
in my eyes
the curve
of my mountain
and the cut
of my lips
i am the goddess
and you're the pilgrim
on your
knees
pray
wish
believe
in only
me
live me
crave me
i am your
cocaine
i am your
ecstasy
save me
be my
white knight
be my
jesus
be me
love me
deeper

10 Truths

1) i wish on stars i can't see, for things i can't have

2) i still care so much for people who care nothing for me

3) for photos, i'd rather be soaked in blood or covered in glitter than prancing around nude and pretending i'm something i'm not

4) i really do keep my friends close and my enemies closer

5) i get jealous over stupid shit sometimes

6) i'm still nice to him, as much as i wish he'd just get the fuck out of my life

7) i miss being the girl i was sometimes. i still don't understand the person i am now.

8) i have no fucking clue how to be happy. sad, angry, all that i can deal with. but happiness i can't figure out.

9) 95% of the time, i hate modeling

10) i'd rather be a poet

R O M A N T I C I Z E D

look how
beautiful
you are
with your
bones
protruding
with your
flesh
pale
pulled tight
like a
canvas
like
white silk
on a
screen
with a
fragile frame
look how
perfect
you are
so
delicate
a tiny
glass
vial
full of
pretty
poison
look how
flawless
you are
look how
beautiful

Monday, September 14, 2009

Geometric Sex- by SPRINGHEEL

Beautiful Girls

They say that
pretty girls
are a dime a dozen
&
it's true.

But some are truly
special.

Some are not
porcelain dolls
so ready to be broken
waiting
for the slightest
touch
of your
fingertips
the slightest
smile
on your lips
to validate
her existence.

Some are not
silicone
and fantasy
living only
to be your
true love
for one night.

Some are
REAL.

Some are so
black velvet
sweet wine
chocolate-covered cherry
smooth

&
so
watermelon
while you catch
fireflies
on your tongue
sweet

&
so
stars
die
in her
blue
eyes
beautiful

You have to
touch her

You have to
taste her

You have to
watch her
every move

you have to
love her
forever
no matter
how hard
you fight it

You have to
want her
all of her
near you
with you
in you
until it hurts

You have to
chase her
because you're so
afraid
you might miss
a single
sparkling
moment
that you can't
breathe

You have to
accept her
for better
for worse
because
nothing you say
nothing you do
will change her

& sometimes
you have to
let
her
go

Because you cannot
hold a
butterfly
in your hands
forever
without breaking her
wings

You cannot catch
the lightning
with your teeth

&
you cannot
love a girl
like butterflies
and lightning
and disco glitter perfection
and keep her
in a box

I know
because once
i was in love
with the most
beautiful
girl
in the world.

Ta Dada Orm...

... reidh go dti sibh... sibh mba mo duine geal ridire, mo dochas cathain gach uile rud thainig fabht air, mo neart cathain mise riachtanais go dti lig gabh... sibh mba mo gaiscoich cathain si an uile taispeain gan tairbhe...

cen rud did mise coisir go dti scrios e seo?

anois, cathain mise riachtanas a cara nios mo na i gconai, mise faigh me fein in eineacht le ceann ar bith...

go dti ceas croi ag tigh sibhse iomlan, ansin.

mise eirigh as...

sibhse dean si iontach follasach iad sin ta dada orm... reidh go dti sibhse...

A Better Version Of You

i could be a better version of you

i could do the things you do

drink more, eat less

fuck more, love less

smoke more, feel less

yeah, i could be you, but could you be me?

i could be the girl everyone falls in love with

i could be the girl that gets

chewed up,

spit out,

and left behind

like nothing at all

i could be the world's sweetheart

yeah, i could be you, love, but you could never be me

i could be a better version of you

i could do the things you do

i could love everyone and no one at all

i could hide it as i fall apart

yeah, i could be you, but could you be me?

Monday, September 7, 2009

Cineal Plaisteach Domhan

Sinne mair sna iad seo cineal plaisteach domhan
In eineacht le cineal plaisteach daoine
Siadsan mair sna mor plaisteach teachs
In eineacht le cineal plaisteach clanns
Siadsan is cineal
Siadsan is foirfe
Siadsan is breige
Sinne mair sna iad seo cineal plaisteach domhan
In eineacht le cineal plaisteach daoine
Siadsan machnaigh sinne is granna
Toisc sinne is nithiuil
Sinne is nach cineal
Sinne is nach plaisteach
Sinne is nach foirfe
Sinne is aonair
Feoil
Fuil
Cnamh
Sinne caith colms
Amhail sceals
Amhail a suaitheantas
Sinne is nach cineal
Ar bith
Sinne is nach plaisteach
Sinne is nach foirfe
Sinne is nithiuil daoine
Ag tigh nithiuil pian
Nithiuil colms
Agus ce go plaisteach daoine creid sinne is granna
Sinne coinnigh rite go dti ar baruil-
Se is an pian, an gleic
Ce acu is alainn

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Coir E Seo Uair...

...Mas e do thoil e coil bi seanmhar do mise...

Mise ar deireadh criochnaigh rud eigin ar mo fein, agus an uile sibh samhail dar data- airgead.

Cen fath reir tu nach sibh coir bi oibrithe do mise? E do thoil e?

Mise ar deireadh mothaigh maith timpeall rud eigin, agus an uile sibh feasta- deantus mise mothaigh amhail cac...

Iomlan. Iad seo coir ceard mise riachtanas...