Tuesday, May 5, 2009

this isn't going to go well...

... is it?

something is changing in my world. i don't know what it is or why, but i know it hurts.
it's a constant ache lately, something that never goes away, but sometimes escalates to a stab, a burn, a blinding sting.
sometimes i can put it out of my mind, ignore it, forget.
but i suppose that's what got me into this mess in the first place, isn't it?
the need to forget, the desire to be someone else...
sometimes it seems like i did this to myself.
and sometimes it's like a cruel joke of nature.
today... it's a little of both.
today, i can't ignore it, can't forget it, can't pretend i'm okay.
today i want to sleep until it's over.
turn it off, please?

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