D I S E A S E D

she is the disease
she bleeds in dreams
catatonic
close your eyes, girl
they say she's sick
yeah, they say she's fading fast
she says- 'the virus eats away
consumes me-
it's all that i have left'

the pills won't kill it now
no cure for what i have become
nothing will save me now
i am diseased

don't say i'm okay
and please don't pray
infected
now this plague defines me
they say i'm sick
yeah, they say i'm fading fast
but it's all i know
for certain
it's all that i have left

the pills won't kill it now
no cure for what i have become
nothing will save me now
i am diseased

don't hold my hand
too weak to stand
a leper
yes, that's all i am
they say i'm sick
but they can't see inside
it's in my head
it's all that i have left

the pills won't kill it now
no cure for what i have become
nothing will save me now
i am diseased

just like a cancer grows
and my heart slows
a virus devours
these countless hours
i am the disease
i am the disease
i am the disease

what they could have treated
it became me
i cling tighter to
all i thought i knew
i am the disease
i am the disease
i am the disease

the pills won't kill it now
no cure for what i have become
nothing will save me now
i am diseased

I Know How This One Ends...

do you ever feel like something is going on, and you're the only one who's missing it?
like something is horribly wrong and no one wants to be the one to break the news to you?
can you ever taste the coming hurt in the air?
are you ever afraid of saying a word, afraid it will just make things worse?
do you ever feel it so deep that you just want to scream so everyone knows?
does it ever seem like you can't run away from what's happening, whether or not you can put a name to it?
can you ever see it as clearly as you see yourself in the mirror, but both still seem so foreign?
you know it, you know it should all be familiar, but it's not...
are you ever so sure of an ending that you don't want to finish the book, let alone the day?
i know how this one ends... it's sad...